2 days after I wrote the last post, I delivered my baby boy. It wasn't suppose to be a hard labor, however, because some medical mistakes, my baby was born without life. It was necessary CPR and ventilator. We passed almost 10 days hospitalized. I had a hard time breastfeeading him because of the shape of my breast and also had high blood pressure for a while after he was born.
Even though it looks like bad news, we are actually doing completely fine. He is a healthy baby with no sequelae and despising my anxiety I'm good too.
When I was pregnant I even thought about giving up on lolita fashion. I was thinking on giving up on lots of things, because I was felling so sick that I had no energy to do things I used to enjoy.
After Oliver was born, I gain some kilograms and my shoes number changed and I basically lost the most of my lolita clothes and shoes. I didn't had a lot of things indeed. My wardrobe was composed of 3 jsk and 3 skirts. I'm not couting accessories.
I used to have only one petticoat. It was white and was A-line already (it was old). It was another thing that didn't fit anymore.